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♕ Chibi ([personal profile] chibichan) wrote2012-10-08 10:07 am

health update

I was going to reply to you guys' comments, but I then I realised that I would be writing the same replies about my health and so I decided to just write an entry about it.

So. I went to the physiotherapist on Saturday. She worked on my abdominal area and it was quite painful. She's pretty sure that my psoas muscle is really tight and that's what's been causing the nausea and all my other stomach problems.

I have some good news and some bad news. The good news is, the cause of all these problems has been found and if it ever happens again, I know now that I need to go to the physiotherapist. The bad news is, I've had a session with the physiotherapist and I've been feeling weird ever since. That, and the problem might not go away as quickly as I hoped it would.

She barely touched upon my psoas muscle, she just touched the surface of my tummy and it hurt quite a lot. After the session, I was trembling all over (and I wasn't cold or anything) and I'm still feeling a bit sick. I'm still taking my medicines, which is getting quite annoying now, and I'm still not able to eat three normal meals a day.

But all of this bears the question - why did this muscle get tight? Well, it seems that, when I'm tense or stressed or worried, all the tension goes into this one muscle that causes these kind of problems. Some people get tension in their shoulders or necks - I get it in my psoas muscle, right near my stomach, which causes nausea, which then causes me not to eat. I guess this is just my luck.

At the end, the physiotherapist explicitly said to take some time off - just relax, do what I enjoy doing and just stop stressing over uni, essays and whatnot. She told me to rest, drink water and just take it easy for a while. Which I will do.

Let's admit it - I've been stressing and worrying all my life about different stuff - now it's uni and essays, but before that it was school, exams, grades... not to mention the times my mom has pressured me about school and now I'm putting pressure on myself because I want to make my parents proud. At some point it's just too much and the body can't handle it. I mean, I'm at the point now where I feel physically sick because of all the stress. I've officially done it - I've overworked myself.

I'm going to take some time off from university. I'm not going to drop out, I'm just going to take it a bit easier from here on. Now, I have an essay due in a week and another one due in three weeks. If I'm going to take it easy, I'm not going to make the deadlines, considering I still have some reading to do for my equity one (due in a week) and I have done absolutely no reading at all for my public law one (due in three weeks). I'm going to contact my advisor of studies and discuss about what to do. I've already missed a week of lectures and I'm not sure I'm going to attend this week's lectures at this point. I'll talk to my advisor and see what I can do about it. I was thinking of asking for an extension of my essays, so I will be able to submit them without going crazy. And then we'll see about lectures and tutorials. Maybe I'll be able to submit a note from the doctor or physiotherapist about my health and that will excuse me from being absent from tutorials, which are compulsory. We'll see. I'm not too worried about it now, tbh, and I shouldn't worry anyway.

Well, that'all about my health. Gossip Girl is starting again today and I can't wait! ♥ Next time I will hopefully start that meme I posted some time ago. :)
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[personal profile] kaworu 2012-10-08 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
oh wow, I hope you take the time you need to get better and everything. And I hope you can work something out with your school. *hugs*
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[personal profile] cleo 2012-10-08 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* it's really good that you know what's wrong. Even though it comes with a lot of things, knowing takes some stress off. I hope that it starts to heal with rest and relaxation.

Man, what is it with law school and health?! I found out spring semester that I have a kidney disease and this semester am in PT because of the same thing as you but in my shoulder/neck. It's ridiculous how much stress and pressure this kind of school can be. What year are you?

But yay!!! Gossip Girl!!! My not even remotely guilty pleasure. Can't wait!

Feel better!
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[personal profile] cleo 2012-10-10 01:12 am (UTC)(link)
So you're almost half way done! I'm in my last year, and omg I am SO over it.
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[personal profile] spectrier 2012-10-08 07:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Just from reading this one entry it sounds like you're well overdue some rest. Definitely take it easy for a bit, I'm sure your uni'll be able to work something out with essay extensions.

Feel better soon! ♥
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[personal profile] yelena_zaltana 2012-10-08 07:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Sono davvero contenta di sapere che hai finalmente trovato la causa del tuo malessere!Temo ci vorrà del tempo per guarire ma almeno ora sai cosa fare di preciso per guarire e non sei come una trottola che non sa cosa fare per stare meglio! In più,penso che il non sapere il motivo del tuo malessere ti causasse non poco stress,il che peggiorava di gran lunga la situazione...
Mi auguro che l'incontro con il tuo tutor sia positivo...cmq sia ora prenditela comoda e rilassati,direi che te lo meriti!;) *HUGS*
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[personal profile] gumiho 2012-10-08 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Definitely take some time to de-stress and get to a healthier state.

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[personal profile] muladhara 2012-10-09 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm glad you now know what's causing it, and that it can be fixed. I hold all my tension in my lower back/backside, and that causes me mobility problems, so I know how horrific it can be. And feeling nauseous all the time must be awful.

Anyway, I'm thinking positive thoughts for you c: I hope you have a nice relaxed time.

[personal profile] xaea 2012-10-11 04:16 pm (UTC)(link)
i am really, really hoping you feel better soon!

feeling worse after the visit sounds normal to me, only because, when you get a massage or see the chiro, the pain will be worse before it gets better. (it's kind of like that with emotional healing too, actually...things always get worse before they get better.) so i wouldn't worry too much...